Friday, October 20, 2017

Nova Scotia Girls Trip - Part 1

Happy Friday! 

A yearly girls trip is something that is SO good for the soul. That time, traveling without children or spouses and just sitting back and enjoying some girl talk! For a couple of years I thought a trip to Nova Scotia would be fun but hard to organize. When I sent the word out that I thought about this Fall for a girls trip to the East coast and I was actually super surprised by the resounding "yes" that came from many a friend. 

The day was finally here and 7 of us (1 met us at the airport) loaded up in my new van to head to the airport! I was so pleased that all our luggage fit in the back! ha ha! 



It was a nice short and uneventful flight with Stacy (Tracey) and the rest of us girls getting a shout out before getting off the plane! And cousins Vicki and Barb were waiting at the gate to greet us all and drive us to the cottage! 

It was a quiet first evening in. Getting settled into our designated rooms, grabbing some pizza and staying up chatting. 

The next morning it was miserable outside! POURING rain. But we decided to get ready anyways and head to Lunenburg to view the Bluenose. We had a great musical ride to our destination with church camp and Disney songs! 



The Bluenose is a really nice iconic Canadian thing to see. We had lunch at The Old Fish Factory and headed home to get dry! 




We drove the lighthouse route on the way home and enjoyed seeing the Scarecrow Festival in Mahone Bay from the vehicles! We also stopped at a local favorite, Lola's for a little shopping. It's a fun little store with LOTS to see. We also drove by Queensland Beach but didn't stop in account to all the rain coming down! 


We headed back to rest and dry off. Some of us headed to grab supplies. I happened to luck our with our trip masseuse and got a nice long foot rub! Something my husband NEVER gives me during my pregnancies despite my begging! Ha ha!  



Jill was the chef that night and made everyone a delicious spaghetti supper! She made enough for the week! ha ha! 



Cousins Greg and Carolyn stopped in for a visit and brought us a family favorite, Nova Scotia brown bread! 



Stay tuned for part 2...

xo 

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

22 Weeks With Baby Number 3

Figured I'd do some skipping ahead as with some things I missed out on some updates but I did take pics!





This Week:

Keeping things fairly quiet but glad to be passed the 22 week mark! 

Baby This Week: 


Baby has apparently grown from a pint of ice cream to a large kale smoothie. At my last ultrasound at a little over 21 weeks, the baby was measuring at 1 pound! 

Maternity Clothes:


Going strong! Living in maternity bottoms except for regular yoga pants. I am mostly sporting a maternity shirt and a cardigan or sweater or jacket over top! Now that the belly is more pronounced, it is more fun to dress the bump! 

Stretch Marks/Weight: 

Minimal stretch marks actually except for the old ones and my weight is up 5 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight according to my 21 week appointment. 

Movement:


Lots of movement! I swear this kid is on my schedule because even on weekends at 5 AM it is up having a party. It is as if it knows my work schedule and usually I am awake by that time. Ryan was able to feel baby move from the outside for the first time on September 27 at a little over 20 Weeks. 

Food Aversions/Cravings:


French fries, meats...the usual are gross. But really have had cravings for chocolate and pickles lately (#typicalpregnantlady)! So weird! I hated pickles with Sam! 

Symptoms:


I think the worse symptom is the general soreness this time. I feel like my pelvic bones and hips "relaxed" a lot earlier then before making me feel like I'm at the waddling stage already. 

What I Miss:

Lately, I have been missing alcohol. I don't want it to sound selfish but some nights I would just really like a glass of wine. When out for our girls trip in Nova Scotia and I had the fish, I SO badly wanted a cold beer with it. 

Labor Signs/Health Update:


Well things were looking really great! Stable cervix, no gallstone attacks. All was well. Then at 21 week and a half weeks, I was told my cervix was dangerously short and I needed a cerclage. I had the procedure the next day which was simpler then expected. Recovery has also been fairly easy as well. I am just so thankful for our awesome healthcare system and being closely monitored by the high risk clinic. It gives me nightmares to think about the fact that I would have likely had a loss at over 20 weeks if I had not been this closely monitored. Post cerclage, Doc thinks all looks great and cerclage is doing what it is suppose to!  



Gender:

Still team green! We had a really fun appointment a week after my cerclage. The ultrasound always confirms your birthday and mine happened to be the next day! So I mentioned that. During the ultrasound she switched it to 3D so we could see the face and it was SO neat! She stayed far away from the gender area and so far no doctors, nurses or techs have let it slip! They actually genuinely seem excited to have a couple who aren't finding out as it is rare. 

Wedding Rings/Belly Button


No changes but belly button is starting to get more shallow. 

What I'm Looking Forward To/Best Moment:


Seeing the baby in 3D was a highlight of this pregnancy. It looks like a little baby rather then just bones! I would also have to say all of the birthday treats in the last few weeks! With the gallbladder diet I still try to be careful but have been enjoying some nice birthday meals and treats! 

Daddy This Week:


Another rough time for my poor husband. This man will seriously deserve a medal after this pregnancy. He was by my side pre and post op and I was so glad to have him there. He has been taking such good care of Sam and I. For my 30th birthday he planned an awesome weekend away that unfortunately had to get canceled and we never got a lot of the money back. I felt awful but he never even flinched. He still made it a special birthday and continues to do most stuff around the house and check on me all the time. 

Big Brother Sam:


Again, I was worried about Sam catching on to me being in the hospital again and the surgery stuff. But we tried to keep things as normal as possible and he didn't seem to notice or change his mood any. My parents and Ryan have been doing most daycare drop-offs/pick ups which I think Sam is getting use to. But boy do I miss him! The daycare drives we would chat and sing. When he gets home he wants to get straight to playing and doesn't want to visit. I officially don't fit with him in his bed anymore so we have stories and snuggles in our bed before he goes to sleep. 


Wisdom:

I don't know who invented the cerclage but thank you. You have saved many a babies. A few women have reached out to me about their cerclage experience. Unfortunately, most of us had to have a loss before a cerclage was considered for our next pregnancy. I wish there was some way of making cervical checks more standard from 15-24 weeks for all pregnancy women. It would prevent SO many pre-term births and losses. 

xo 

Thursday, October 12, 2017

On Turning 30

*Update: Doctors appointment went SO well yesterday. My cervix is now longer again than it was a month ago. I will go back in 2 weeks to make sure there is no change but he is very hopeful that all will be good now. Talk about the best birthday gift ever!*

A few years ago, I dreaded the day that I'd leave my "20's" and be in my "30's". It just seemed like a big age! At 16 I though it meant "old". I was happy with where life was at that moment but growing up is scary sometimes and so is getting older!

I can't say the last year of my 20's has been the greatest ever. I got pregnant in November 2016 (month after my birthday) and proceeded to be SO sick after that. With the added sickness came a few hospitals visits and then finally the loss of our little girl in March. The remainder of my last year of 20's, I tread through the emotions of grief and then fear as I learnt I was pregnant again. The sickness began again with my next pregnancy. The last few months of my "20's" has seen a lot of precautionary hospital visits and then just 1 week before turning 30, a day surgery to hopefully keep baby cooking for as long as possible. The last week before turning 30 dealing with a lot of shame and guilt given the fact that my body feels broken to what it is suppose to do as a woman. Too much time to think and not being able to be as active with Sam which breaks my heart. 

But today as I turn 30, I want to think back on some of the fonder moments of the year! The good in my life and the friends and the family that I am so blessed to have surrounding me. 

This year brought trips, maple syrup making, a new greenhouse, our business celebrating 40 years, a new vehicle, new bundles of joy for friends, supper dates with Ryan and friends, movies, lots of food in my belly, a roof over my head,  A+ government covered medical care, a little girl in heaven watching over me and a boy who lights up my everyday. I truly am blessed! 











So, lately when people ask or tease about me turning 30, I truly don't care. Actually, my birthday is pretty far from my mind this year (Except for cake. I can't wait for a big slice of chocolate cake and some other birthday treats!).  If anything, I am more hopeful that turning 30 will be a welcomed change! A fresh start, hopefully a year of happy memories. If not, I guess with "age" I am beginning to learn that even through the hurt and the pain, seeing the good around me. To know that things could be worse, the pain will get better with time and taking the time to count my blessings. Here's to a new decade of learning, growing, loving, celebrating, reflecting and living!  

Here is to 30! 

xo 

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Cerclage

It has been a while since an update. It has actually been pretty great in these part! I have a recap of a great time to Nova Scotia with some girlfriends that I'd like to share. But I think I'll have a lot of time to do that as from now until the baby comes, this Momma is going to be taking things a little easier. 

To say this has felt like a long pregnancy already would be an understatement. Counting down days until the next milestone. It was been both a comfort and trouble getting to the hospital that is over an hour away to be seen by the high risk doctors. 

From the beginning of this pregnancy, I was always told "you'd be lucky to make until 34 weeks" but that everything looked good. Apparently by nature, I have a shorter then average cervix but it was stable and not moving so they just thought it was just the way my body was made. Thankfully, they were still checking it every two weeks. A week ago today at my last measurement, my cervix wasn't stable anymore. In was now shorter then what they like to see at this point in a pregnancy. It means that my cervix was no longer stable and if it got any shorter, it could mean early dilation and pre-term labor. Being that last week I was only 21 weeks and some days pregnant, it could mean (depending on how much more it shortened) another loss of a baby for us.

I am so thankful that they caught it and even more thankful that my doctor assured me we were still at a good point (lots of cervix left and not too pregnant) to still get a cerclage. But it did mean that the following day (Thursday, October 5) I was back at the hospital and getting day surgery. 


Going into the OR that looked so similar to the one I went into in March brought on a wave of emotions and a panic attack. Through the panic I kept telling them I was getting a cerclage, not a D and C. They kept assuring me yes they knew which procedure I was getting but the lights and smells were all too familiar. I couldn't catch my breath and I was dizzy, feeling like I was almost in the middle of a dream. It took one strong willed nursed to snap me out of it by telling me they may be forced to give me a sedative (they didn't). 

After that episode, I was most freaked out about getting a spinal as I had never experienced that before but it was a breeze. The difficult part was that like normal for that procedure, I began contracting shortly after the surgery (and freezing) was done. The nurse and doctors kept assuring me that it was normal and would end soon and offered me a narcotic to help. I agreed and thankfully the narcotic not only knocked me out but also helped the pain from the contractions which did end within an hour. 

I was able to go home and have been enjoying my home from a horizontal angle since. I will be heading back today to check and make sure the cerclage is doing what it is suppose to do but I actually feel good and hopeful it's working and will continue to work for some time. 

So begins the counting down to a new milestone, viability...24 weeks. 11 more days, and counting. 

xo 

Friday, September 29, 2017

19 Weeks with Baby Number 3

Currently 20 weeks and 5 days pregnant. 


And just for fun....a comparison. 19 weeks with Sam. 3rd pregnancies are no joke! ha ha! 


This Week:

19 weeks! Almost half way...weh! 

Baby This Week: 


Baby is the size of a game boy (?) right now. But I think there may be a growth spurt or something this week because I have been HUNGRY and tired! 

Maternity Clothes:


This hot weather has been a killer! My maternity work clothes are long sleeved so while I am OK when sitting in the office, it is BOILING when I step outside! Plus I have no shorts or t-shirts that fit me. So I've been trying to get away with Yoga pants and one of Ryan's t-shirts. I really want some cooler weather again so I can use my maternity jeans and leggings with sweaters. 

Stretch Marks/Weight: 

At my doctors appointment this week I was actually down a few pounds. This is likely due to my new gallbladder diet. 

As the belly moves upward and is getting bigger, my old stretch marks are turning more purple then the skin color they were. It's funny, last pregnancy I was lathering on the cream to "help" but this time I only put it on after a shower or when I'm itchy. It's just inevitable that I'm gonna have stretchmarks so I'm not going to waste time or money on products to prevent it. 

Movement:


SO much movement again this week. On the weekend I could feel maybe a leg above my belly button. If I lay still with my hand on my belly I can sometimes feel it from the outside but it's too sporadic for Ryan and Sam. 

Food Aversions/Cravings:


This week has all been about the new Gallbladder diet plan. It's not too bad yet. Basically, no greasy or fatty foods. Lots of fresh fruit, vegetables, lean meats, whole grains and lots of water. While this won't make the stones go away, hopefully it will keep attacks at bay. 

I am craving a BIG cinnamon bun dripping in cream cheese icing. Any fat free recipes you can share? ha ha! 

Symptoms:


Very hungry and tired this week. I woke up for the first time at midnight STARVING one night. I was too tired to get up to get something to eat however. I have been fighting a cold this week too which adds to the tiredness I'm sure. Also OVERHEATING with this heat wave. Props to you Momma's who are pregnant all summer long, it sucks. 

What I Miss:


Cold medicine. I would usually not take anything in the daytime but I loved taking nighttime NyQuil for a good nights sleep! Boo! 

Labor Signs/Health Update:


No Gallstone attacks this week which is great but also not expected as it was two weeks between my other two. Went for an ultrasound this week and doctors appointment. It was the anatomy scan which meant a nice and long look at baby! Everything is looking good and on track. Since they measure the baby via ultrasound every 2 weeks, they never do a belly measurement on me or use a doppler (as we see the heart beating). At the beginning of this pregnancy they gave me the option of a precautionary cerclage. Basically a "stitch" to keep everything closed. They didn't say it was necessary but that it was an option. The measured my cervix every appointment with no change but did give us (Ryan was there too) one last chance at a cerclage if it made us feel more comfortable as 19 weeks is the cut off as to the latest you can get one. We asked their medical opinions, talked pro's and cons and finally decided to decline. Pretty final. Now we pray and have faith that all will be good until the 24 week mark. 


Gender:

SO hard to stay team green this week during our ultrasound but we stayed firm in our decision. The general has actually been very helpful and courteous with this. Going above and beyond to make sure we don't know.  

Wedding Rings/Belly Button


No changes! Although with the heat I feel like my "work" wedding ring is getting tighter as it is half a size smaller then my good rings. 

What I'm Looking Forward To/Best Moment:


Ultrasound day! Getting my new Mom-mobile! I am now an official Minivan Momma! Bring on the sliding doors! Exciting week!

Daddy This Week:


Ryan was able to come with me to this last appointment which was awesome. It was a big ultrasound but with it being our busy season, it's harder for him to get away too. I actually like when Ryan comes for the ultrasounds. He is good all the time but after re-affirming and seeing the kid in my belly, for the next week or so he goes ABOVE and beyond his catering to me. ha ha! 

Big Brother Sam:


Sam has been going through a weird stage the last 2 weeks or so. He requests me for EVERYTHING and wants nothing to do with Ryan. I don't know if he is trying to get as much Mommy time in when he can or something. 

Wisdom:

Basements are cool. As in cold. Sleep in the basement when the temperature feels like 40 degrees outside. 

xo 

Monday, September 25, 2017

Weekend Recap - Maybe More Nesting Than I Planned

Happy Monday everyone! Holy smokes it was a hot one in this area! And I said it once and I'll say it again, SERIOUS props to you Momma's out there that are pregnant all summer long! It is DEADLY! I can't breath on good days but add in this heat and it is even worse. My fingers are swelling and I just feel like I am overheating in minutes. I REALLY want to break out my leggings and boots already! 

The weekend started out pretty exciting! After almost 6 years, we traded in the Ford Edge for a 2018 Kia Sedona. Yup, I'm officially a Minivan Mom now! I have loved minivans for their practicality for a long time and we even began looking when I was pregnant with baby number 2. But we finally bit the bullet rather then sink some money into my car this Fall. So why a van when technically we only have 2 kids? Well, we figured with future hockey equipment, friends and family, it would be a nice solution for fitting many people. Plus, I am super excited about putting a baby in and out of the car with sliding doors! Yes, this will be our last baby but we are still open to the possibility of a future adoption for us. Basically, it just made sense for our family for many reasons.  


Mr..."I'm never driving a van", driving the van! :) 


All week Sam has been doing a count down for the weekend. Mostly, I think he has just been excited to sleep in! Ryan had to work Saturday but Sam and I had a lazy morning of cartoons, breakfast and playing inside! 


I eventually convinced him to go outside for a few hours to enjoy the weather while it was still technically "cooler". He played himself out with his typical sandbox fun! We also did water on the farm too which involves RTV drives which helped keep us cool.  


I've been pretty adamant about not doing too much "get ready for baby" stuff and nesting until I reach the 24 week mark. I just don't want to jinx anything and doing that kind of stuff makes me feel like I am. 

But the lists have been running through my head. One item was to prepare the cloth diapers that I used for Sam. This is a pretty big job because it involves washing the outside and stripping the inserts. 

I woke up early on Saturday and decided it was the perfect day to accomplish this task because not only was I home all day, but the weather was PERFECT for hanging them on the line. They'd be dry in no time. I did a 2 hour wash cycle for the covers and then took the inserts outside in a big tub with boiling water, dawn soap and bleach and swirl it all around for 15 minutes and then let it sit for another 15. Wash the inserts on a hot cycle with an extra rinse, hang everything to dry and VOILA, literally like brand new! Even soft and perfectly white (thanks sun). I re-stuffed the diapers and made them into the smallest size (sooo cute). They are all ready and I feel glad to cross something off the list!  


Ryan got home after nap and we had a fun night of pizza by the pool, a swim and then a fire to enjoy before bed. It really calmed down Sam before bed and he was so snugly. 


Sunday was another scorcher! But we were up for church and our regular routine. Had to find some summer stuff to get away with to wear. My belly has grown substantially I find this last week. Sam just wanted to spend the afternoon inside playing with Duplo which was OK with me! 


How was your weekend? 

xo 

Friday, September 22, 2017

18 Weeks With Baby Number 3

Currently 19 Weeks, 6 Days 


This Week:

Made it to 18 weeks! Very relieved! 

Baby This Week: 


Baby is the size of a sling shot (?) according to my app. I feel like baby has really gotten stronger because movements have been very intense. 

Maternity Clothes:


Since I am pregnant around the same time as I was before with Sam, I am not finding it that hard to find something to wear. The hotter weather this week does make it more difficult though. I bought myself 3 new maternity pieces. 1 new pair of Skinny jeans that I LOVE! They were what I would call expensive but I go to them EVERY time I get dressed in something besides work clothes! I love them and consider the cost worth it. I also got a blouse that I am wearing in the above picture for 70% off and I've also got a cardigan that I plan on wearing post baby as well! 

Stretch Marks/Weight: 

At my last appointment at 17 weeks and some days, I was up 4 pounds then 2 weeks ago!! WOAH! I guess the Shawville Fair food got the best of me. Woops. 

Movement:


So much movement! Love that feeling. I am excited for when Sam (Ryan too! ha ha) can feel it from the outside! 

Food Aversions/Cravings:


French fries, meats...the usual. Because of it being Fall, I am cravings apple and pumpkin flavored things! 



A homemade "Fall" coffee at the office this week really hit the spot! 

Symptoms:


The headaches have subsided this week. Thankfully! The belly I feel is very pronounced now. Umm...the backed up thing that goes with pregnancy, not so fun! And I've been getting lots of heartburn this week. 

What I Miss:


Not a lot I miss actually! 

Labor Signs/Health Update:


Well I had an interesting week in the health department. At 18 weeks and 5 days, I woke up to INTENSE back and chest pain. I had experienced this about 2 weeks prior but thought it was just back spasms. Well it was back and I could hardly handle the pain. I was laying on cold floor, trying yoga poses, having sweats and chills and feeling sick! I called the nurse hotline and she told me to call an ambulance. I said no but we did head to the General right away. At first with the chest pains they were going to hook me up an EKG but after some pain meds, blood work and ultrasound, it turns out I have Gallstones and a lot of them. He referred me to a surgeon but he said they may not operate until after the baby comes. If/when another attack comes, I am to take pain meds to try and manage. I am trying to monitor my diet to hopefully keep attacks at bay. 

Gender:


Still team green! I think so far the vote for boy versus girl is taking the lead! 

Wedding Rings/Belly Button


No changes! 

What I'm Looking Forward To/Best Moment:


Well at over 18 weeks we got our ultrasound and baby was really putting on a show and again during the ultrasound for gallstones, the tech took a peak. 

Daddy This Week:


Poor Ryan had a rough week with my gallstone attack. He had to try and help me during the pain, and then drive me at 3 AM to the hospital during the attack. It must be so stressful for him to go through that. He proceeded to sit at the hospital in an uncomfortable chair for almost 12 hours waiting on the results. I sometimes complain about him, but truthfully he is such a strong man and great partner. Through this pregnancy he has really stepped up in helping around the house, with Sam and just being there for me. I asked him one night if he still would have married me if he knew what kind of trouble I would have with giving him children. Without hesitation he said that he would do everything exactly the same.

Big Brother Sam:


I was a little worried about my early morning/all day doctor visit and it worrying Sam. He is a sensitive and receptive little dude. As soon as I saw him, he asked where I was and I just told him, "Momma has rocks in her belly and doctor is going to make it better". Then proceeded with normal routine including the next morning. 

Wisdom:

When learning what my new diet would entail, I was at first a little depressed about all the food I would be missing. But after a little time on Pinterest, I found some new recipes and food ideas to make myself excited. I am trying to keep it positive and find food I will truly enjoy! 


xo