Today is Mother’s Day! My very first Mother’s Day in fact. Although, I think I am so new into this gig that I still sometimes don’t feel like a Mom. To be honest, sometimes I feel like I am babysitting this little person. Then when Sam is overly upset and the only thing that can make him happy is to be in my arms, it hits me. I’m his Mom. He needs me and truthfully, I need him.
When my Mom would tell me that one day I would understand the love that she feels for my brother and I when I have children of own, I would roll my eyes. I knew she loved me and I knew that I would love my own children but I really didn’t understand that love.
Now, I get it.
It’s not just a love or infatuation. It’s a heart stopping and expanding feeling in the chest. It’s the fact that you want nothing more then to see this little person grow and thrive but wish to keep them little. It’s the sacrifice that you make day and night to make sure that there needs are met. It’s the fact that you suddenly become not important on the list of your daily priorities. It’s the feeling of knowingly giving your whole self (body and mind) to doing this job and hopefully doing it well.
So, to my mom, my mother in law and all of the rest of you Moms out there….I GET IT and you are such amazing women. Enjoy the day that shows appreciation for all that you give! Happy Mother’s Day!
To my Sam, in the years to come you will be giving me cards and home made gifts to thank ME for being your Mom and all that entails. But, thank YOU for being the one to make me a Mommy. I promise to spend every Mother’s day celebrating that fact that you are in my life and although the job not easy, you made me a mommy. I promise to do my best to be the best Mom possible.
I love you so much!